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In reference to the new audio episodes. I think I'm over it. Either that, or it's just that as much as I love Captain Jack (and JB), it's just not Torchwood without Owen, Tosh, and Ianto. Like Miracle Day wasn't really Torchwood, and even COE seemed to be the characters names played by the same actors, but actually different characters, if that makes sense. Everyone was so OOC in COE, it did not seem like Torchwood to me at all. Hellooo fan fiction. I am so there. Oddly enough, I am perfectly fine reading fics where there is no Gwen. She never seems to add anything but annoyance, in my mind. Like a strand of celery stuck in your teeth (read that somewhere), you desperately want it to go away, but it just stays and stays and stays and makes you crazy in the interim. But that's just me.


Jul. 23rd, 2015 03:59 pm (UTC)
Yay! I have yet to watch the latest season, need to get my hands on it yet. I still like a lot of the other characteres enough to watch on, but the series has definitely shifted its tone. Reason is that they ran out of original stories to tell and are now making up their own. So in a way it fits that Jenny left. And they put more emphasis on the personal life of the characteres now.

That's why I always will be very fond of Stargate, as it was the first time I realized I am not alone in this world, there are crazy people like me in this world (before I always was the odd one out not fitting in) and there are people that like me the way I am and I don't have to change myself at all.

The first time I heard of Aspergers was with Jerry from Boston Legal, with whom I immediately connected when he first appeared on screen. Funny how you realize on an unconscious level that there is someone like you?

You should have seen me before, being afraid of unusual or stressful situations, now I travel to the UK on my own if necessary and don't think twice of it. But after that much excitement and spending times with friends, I also need some time for myself, to come down.

I try to make a point to look behind the facade indeed, also with people meeting in real life. It is so easy to judge. And even in fangroups like Stargate or Torchwood, there are smaller groups and sometimes one person everyone laughs about. We shouldn't do that, we should stick together, so I always try to see the person and get to know them better before judging.

I remember the first night I sought out who that John Barrowman guy was. I spent till 4 AM at youtube, you know how it is - one video leads to 20 more. And I was amazed when he would talk with using his arms a lot in an interview, and laughing out loud. I never had seen someone doing that at TV before. I love the whole Barrowman family, they seem to be a funny and crazy bunch of people who surely enjoy life. It reminds me of my own family - we are always the loud ones and often get head turnings when we are in a store or restaurant. But we also once livened up a party of many old people with telling jokes or singing songs with them, and the next morning they said they had the best time of their life that evening. So, as always, two sides of a coin. You just have to learn to ignore the people that scrunch their noses.

I also bought a lot of old magazines with interviews, and in quite a few the article started with "I didn't expect to like him but I do". As the interviewers also go in with their opinion of what they see in TV, but of course in real life he is different. Once he turns his charme on you, you are lost ;)

Apparently we should have done that years ago! But better late than never, right?
Jul. 25th, 2015 12:10 am (UTC)
I know, his family seems to really have a good time together, although I think his dad is a little creepy. Don't know why, unless maybe he reminds me of someone who is hidden in my subconscious? You never see anything about his brother, but he and his sister are quite the pair. They always make me smile and giggle. I think they must have had a really good childhood. Do I look a bit green here?

I remember Boston Legal, but I think I was still in the 'too stupid' phase and didn't really take in that "Oh, here's someone like me".

I admire you for being so bold and traveling on your own, and just getting out there. I used to cross the street if someone was coming towards me, just so I wouldn't have to interact by saying 'hi' or anything. Much better now. I can actually converse with total strangers. In person. Yay, me. LOL

It's really great how we change over time, and kind of great too how much we are influenced by people like John and Gareth. Seeing an out gay man, who is not ashamed, not afraid, who speaks his mind, what a great role model. I'm not gay, but I can see how beneficial it is. Even to not-gays. Just the confidence to be yourself, regardless of some people's prejudices, it helps all of us to see that demonstrated in real life.

It must be very different being an actor now, with cons and social media, and we are much more face-to-face with actors as people than ever was common before the internet and cons. It must be very rewarding for the actors to see and speak to the people who think they're fantastic. Or scary as hell. I'm not sure. LOL

Aug. 8th, 2015 06:34 am (UTC)
The brother has chosen not to be in the spotlight but one in our FB group actually worked with him for years before realizing who he was ;) And she confirms he is a nice guy as well. He also once invited her and her son into his house when John was over.

Have you read the biographies "Anything goes" and "I am what I am"? Lots of funny family stories in there. They used to gather at Christmas and then everyone had to perform something, costumes and all. They are all performers. And somehow, all that talent must have culminated in John.

Do you know Greg Barrowman? A distant cousin. In 2010, at the age of 17, he had to step in for John in the daily pantomime show in Glasgow, when he got seriously ill with swine flu. To perform the lead role in a musical for a whole week twice a day at that age is something to achieve! I actually got to see him live two years ago the same day when John had fallen off that horse on stage and had to be brought to hospital. It was a bit scary. But he did well under the circumstances and last year he had his own show in Edinburgh. I'm sure we will hear from him yet.

I think the parents gave all their kids the best thing: Confidence and allowing them whatever they wanted to be. Telling them, do whatever they want to do, but be good at it. Also, at the age of 16, John was made to shovel coal into furnace a whole summer long, to learn the value of hard work. It was a great lesson, to learn that you should not look down at anyone, that each job is equally important, and he lives that.

He likes us to think that his childhood was without trouble, but recently at SDCC there was this anti-bullying panel and he told the story about how he was shoved into his locker by a bully. There is a short clip of it here: http://www.cbs8.com/story/29530313/at-comic-con-bullying-is-no-laughing-matter

The whole panel is officially available as well but I haven't watched it yet. Another time at Twitter he let slip "You have no idea what I went through so shut up"

Funnily, I never had trouble talking with strangers. As I knew I never would see them again ;) The daily people at school were the problem. And I always was afraid of getting lost. Even going just by tram through my own city made me sweat and anxious. And when our class would go to Berlin for a day, it frightened me. I always worried of staying behind and not knowing how to get home. In general, I lived so much inside my own head, I rarely looked at the world outside.

I think I can really thank fandom for changing me, giving me the confidence being liked the way I am. If you want to see your stars, you have to travel. It's easy as that. If you really want something, it is amazing what you can achieve!

There are actors like John (or Bill) who take to social media and like to interact with their fans, but there are still also others who don't want that (David Tennant) and it's fine. But everyone says, and I get that, that being in theatre is so much better, as you get the immediate audience reaction, while when filming on camera, you are on your own. And this is why I always say that JB belongs onto a stage. I have seen him in pantomime, I have seen him in concert tour, he is awesome with an audience he can play off of.

You are not anywhere near Palm Springs, are you? He will perform at a special evening there in March.

Sorry for this long comment, but as you can see, it is a topic I can talk about forever ;)
Aug. 8th, 2015 10:13 pm (UTC)
I did read the books, it's been a few years now. I remember about the guy stepping in, but not the details, and I remember JB saying the reason he has an American accent is because he was bullied so badly for his Scottish accent, he learned to speak 'American' in self-defense. Kids can be so cruel to anyone who is different.

I live in Massachusetts. I am really not terribly mobile, so will probably never get to go to a con or anything, but I do love reading about them, and seeing the pictures of people who actually do get there. I usually have a lot of trouble understanding anyone on videos. I wish they published transcripts, to go along with the vids.

I have a bazillion pictures of John and Gareth and Torchwood in general, saved on my computer. I sometimes make that folder my wallpaper one, so I can just sit back and enjoy the view. Especially Gareth. I do like Gareth. :)

I don't know anybody in real life who even likes sci-fi (although the guy who used to come change the central air filter every six months was a Doctor Who fan, and we had some fun discussions while he worked), let alone Torchwood or Doctor Who, and when I say I'm a fangirl, they look at me like I am even crazier than they already thought I was. Maybe they think I'm too old to be a fangirl. Tough! It's fun to talk about this stuff, people. It makes me happy. Happy is good. Live with it! LOL